tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78534235322682827402024-03-12T20:05:47.297-07:00Mayhem & FoolishnessQuasi-literate ramblings from an obstreperous womanMs. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-70150728876319318982009-06-13T22:41:00.000-07:002009-06-13T23:38:11.395-07:00Clammed Up I've been kinda quiet, blog wise. For the past year and a half or so I've been working on carving out my own life, I have come to accept that I am a continual work in progress. While I have been trying to figure out how to live, life has gone on.There is no such state as being "fixed" and moving forward; no guarantee that demons from the past won't resurface to challenge me again. Somehow; Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-88724390440707700752008-08-29T19:47:00.000-07:002008-08-29T20:39:52.580-07:00Happy Birthday, DadThis is a challenging time for me.On a daily basis, I am dealing with a heart full of polar opposites: love and loss, fear and courage, resolve and timidity.I am in a place I never expected to be at this point in my life.I am sometimes frightened while curious, happy one moment and moved to tears the next.Sometimes I feel like I am a mess.Others, I feel as though everything has the chance to be Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-86201723170377736992008-07-30T22:02:00.000-07:002008-07-30T22:47:48.308-07:00What the HELL is he thinking?I will admit that it has been a very long time since I have been surprised by just how badly politics can manage to mangle our lives.It doesn't matter, for the most part, on what side of the political fence you find yourself...both are so entrenched in their bias that real dialogue ceased to exist longer ago than I even want to think about.Through it all, there is one issue that each year, is my Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-75735847898346382462008-07-26T16:30:00.001-07:002008-07-27T07:40:59.090-07:00Saturday's PossiblitiesSaturdays are the most interesting day of the week for me.I especially love the early morning hours on Saturday.I am, by nature, something of an early riser. I like the quiet cool of the morning...the way the rising light brings colour to the world outside. I love waking up to email and the smell of fresh, earthy coffee ready to sip.What I love most; are the possibilities that beckon from Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-58261257350199581092008-07-21T21:09:00.000-07:002008-07-22T19:08:56.508-07:00RareThere were at least a dozen other containers in the nursery that day, all with a generic label that read "Italian Peppers, Green, Long"And no other information.No cute little picture on a plant card telling me what to expect..no indications of what kind of environment best suited this variety.The plant itself was unremarkable.... barely more than a stick in the dirt with a couple of leaves. I Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-26035748687080323692008-05-28T13:25:00.001-07:002008-05-28T16:54:31.883-07:00Oh, Roll Divine !I've been getting back in touch with my inner baker.I learned to bake bread from my mom when I was 7. I remember standing on a step stool at the kitchen counter, a hand towel tied around my waist in lieu of an apron, learning the right hand motions in punching down dough.. kneading dough...looking for just the right texture before letting dough rise. I grew up appreciating the smell of bread Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-17418796168676379132008-05-25T09:04:00.000-07:002008-05-25T09:26:34.225-07:00While You Were OutLife has an interesting habit of getting us out of our own way.Last week, the majority of my waking moments were spent thinking, worrying, and supporting my grandaughter and her parents while the Wee One underwent open heart surgery.The surgery went just fine; was successful and our three year old sprite is back to trying to make the case for having lollipops for dinner each night. My fledgling Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-11900326519858038242008-03-20T07:45:00.000-07:002008-03-20T17:25:29.780-07:00Harbinger of SpringI've been having an affair.And yesterday, the for very first time in the 21 years that I have been carrying on this one sided tryst, I spoke to the object of my affection.Ahhh...he has no clue as to my feelings; he is the quintessential passing fancy.Our landmark conversation, after 21 years is as follows:"Spring is here, if you are out running""Heh heh....... Yeah"...sigh...I speak of the man IMs. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-86655927346510356872008-03-06T05:30:00.000-08:002008-03-06T07:33:31.017-08:00SolitudeWhen was the last time that you spent a full day in solitude?Notice I didn't say alone?There is a difference, in my universe. In solitude, one can have Thomson's elegant sufficiency....." An elegant sufficiency, content,Retirement, rural quiet, friendship, books,..."In the quiet spaces of life, it may be easy to mistake solitude for being alone. Alone is ...without contact or connection with Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-63338828153544211442008-02-20T12:37:00.000-08:002008-02-20T13:32:12.186-08:00Adapt or Be ThirstyI'm kinda tired of the whole "When life hands you lemons; make lemonade" thing.It seems like such an easy thing for people to lob over the emotional fence at you when they can see you struggling, and they WANT to appear concerned, maybe even helpful...butjust....can't.....quite.....figure out how.It should be simple, right ? Lemons + You Doing Something = Lemonade !! Insert visions of tall Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-56773546175669526102008-02-09T17:51:00.000-08:002008-02-10T10:03:05.538-08:00BalanceThe single most valuable advice I have received regarding living a full, allowing and loving life is to seek balance.Notice I did not say, to FIND balance. What I am learning, is that balance, when prepared for, will come.So how does one, prepare for balance?Be present to your life as you are living it in each an every moment. Be awake and aware of what you are feeling. And when the feelings Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-29910553404864218632008-01-28T09:46:00.000-08:002008-01-28T10:44:10.822-08:00The Kindness of OthersThere is something about a new wallet.There is something in particular, about THIS new wallet.Embodied in supple leather, a beautiful clasp, crisp and clean new spaces is.... transformation.My sister is something of a phenom when it comes to finding bargains, working deals, getting on with the business of life.She's got a rep in the family: You need a bulldog to go to a store and negotiate a Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-13827265772636367612008-01-26T09:33:00.000-08:002008-01-26T09:44:41.182-08:00ShatteredMy partner of nearly 20 years and I are splitting up.For the bulk of the week, we have been discussing things that would have been better said days...weeks..months....years ago.We are not nasty...we do not fight...we work to not do more damage than this will already do to ourselves, our family, our friends.We hold on to one another and cry..wishing we were anywhere but in this space. Hating the Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-31160224405752109872008-01-08T07:02:00.000-08:002008-01-08T09:46:53.678-08:00How Resolute Are Your Resolutions ?I am actually quite proud of myself this year.1. I managed to avoid ALL of the end of year retrospectives on who died in the last 12 months. All those little video clips of actors, waving goodbye to the camera from that great movie that they made; all of those composite shots of conductors or musicians against their embedded soundtracks, all of the tributes to those persons of influence that Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-10502827333524043502007-11-25T03:28:00.000-08:002008-01-08T09:44:13.191-08:00Blog Posts Can Be OverwroughtI've decided that bloggers fall easily into a trap that can prevent them from actually writing...The trap is thinking that everything you say, must contain some earth shaking truism. Some philosophic wonderment that will serve as an epiphany for either yourself...or someone that stumbles upon your little piece of the blog sphere.'Tis not the case. There is joy, wonderment, life lessons, epiphanyMs. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7853423532268282740.post-43648248286069142332007-11-16T15:17:00.000-08:002008-01-08T09:41:27.221-08:00Put 'em Up !So...I carve out a little corner of the blog-o-sphere for rants and ramblings.Random musings...as they occur to me, as time and opportunity permit me to express...You 'll learn about me, should you care to read...I'll learn about you, should you care to comment...Ready ?Let's get started...Ms. Mayhemhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12187051669972717998noreply@blogger.com0